Things have continued to progress on all fronts here in the Spellman house! The little ones are growing and so is my weekly mileage! Getting out to run is a great stress relief. Running has always been more of something I felt I had to do, and while I loved it, the more stressed I was, the less I wanted to run. THAT HAS CHANGED!! The more stressed the little amazing buggers around here make me, the more I enjoy every step and can't wait to start chasing after my goals!
For now running is slow going, but it IS GOING!! My running last week was 15 miles in 4 days of running.
Monday-Brisk 1 mile walk with Pegasus
Tuesday-3 miles 8:43 pace (hilly)
Wednesday-3 miles 8:05 pace
Thursday- 4 miles 8:04 pace
Saturday- 5 miles LONG RUN! Ran with Ryan while the kids were with his parents. 8:24 pace
|I have a lot of shoes to run though! |
The kids are growing and are 8 lbs each! They have had great nights, and some rough ones. I was exhausted toward the end of the week and that lead to a lot of tears. I struggled wondering how long I would feel tired, and how to get them to sleep well. I feel like I have lost myself a lot. I found myself really missing Ryan an my simple life prior to kids. I hated the way that I felt. I love these kids, I absolutely adore them. So why was I feeling this way?! This feeling only served to make me panic more, and worry about my ability to be a good mom. Poor Ryan did all he could to comfort me and make me feel loved and appreciated. Early this week Jeanine Booker, a friend, and fellow new mom (her little man is 7 months old), stopped by and gave me such peace of mind. She was here for approximately 8 minutes and in that short of a time, I felt significantly better. She asked how I was doing and I said "Ok, tired, but I am hanging in there". She read through my bull, and simply said, "It does get easier Beck, I promise." She told me it is completely normal to feel sad, stressed, and tired. That was all I needed. Hearing it from someone who was so recently in my shoes, and who I love, trust and know they know me through and through was the most comforting feeling I can remember in the past month.
Andrea was in town from Baton Rouge and helped me take some 1 month pic of the little Spelltwins.
It was great to see friends, and I loved having the help!
|Ferf and Annie with Nolie and Corra.|
As this week is moving along I am feeling much better and handling my new position as a mom with a little less fear, and stress! I went to the Dr. yesterday and got the 100% go ahead on running! He gave me a bit of a glare when I told him I started running "lightly" 2 weeks ago. But everything looks good and I am excited to continue to chase down my running dreams and work hard on being the mom my kids need and deserve! A few less tears this week are a welcomed reprieve from last week! Thank you so much Ferf, Annie, and Jeanine for helping me feel a little more like myself!
We have 52 days until the Akron 1/2 Marathon and my goal of 7:00 pace seems like it may be realistic. I can't wait to see how training goes!